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Unwanted
My story isn't so much different then anyone else in an abusive situation. My soon to be ex-husband was charming and funny. He was everything I could of ever wanted in a man until one day he wasn't. He would sweet talk and gaslight make me feel like I was the one that was crazy. This isn't about what he did to me though this is about my daughter. I have a beautiful 2 month old baby girl. She is amazing and I love her with every ounce of my being but she was not wanted or planned. To understand the story though you need to understand how and when it went wrong. My ex-husband had a violent side and when I would say no to anything he would take it anyways. If he wanted something even when it was out of our grasps, whether financially or physically, it was up to me to make sure he got it at any costs. If I failed at acquiring it for him, he would physically and sexually abuse me. One day he decided he wanted a new truck and this is the day it all went wrong. He told me he wanted a new vehicle and said we were going to go around town and test drive some. After a day of doing that he picked one. He acquired some time beforehand a few checks for our account from the bank and informed me I was going to write this check for him so he could acquire this truck. I told him no and he slapped me hard across the face, so I did. Fast forward check was bad, truck was taken, and we both spent a couple days in jail. My ex-husband bonded himself out with my money and left me in jail for 5 days. Instead of going home to take care of my two other children he was stepfather to, he packed all his things and went to his mothers house two hours away leaving my kids with my parents. Once he was gone though I was so relieved and excited. My life could start anew, oh how wrong was I. Two weeks after I filed for divorce I found out I was pregnant. I have spent the last year fighting him in court not only for divorce but to prove the abuse. My daughter was born November 4th early after he kicked me so hard he lacerated my liver. She was brought into this world unwanted. His goal that day was to make sure she and I didn't survive. I'm still not fully recovered and the trauma he has caused will leave a lasting effect on myself and my kids for the rest of our lives. He will never know the effect he will have on our daughter once she grows up and learns the story of how she came to be and why her father isn't in her life. I will never be able to fix the damage that will cause her heart. Even though she was unwanted by him she will never feel that way from me or her two brothers.
By Aubrey Adkins5 years ago in Psyche
What I Learned This Time Around
You cannot escape reality, not even by killing yourself. I spent January 2-4 in a psychological crisis center. It was not my first rodeo. However, it was different this time than ever before. Admitting myself voluntarily while suicidal, I truly dedicated myself to betterment. I think what truly stopped me from attempting was fear: of the unknown, of hurting my loved ones, of the fact that things might just be worse afterwards. While hospitalized, I spent the entire time reading self help books, meditating, practicing mindfulness, and using positive self talk.
By Molly Caitlin Long5 years ago in Psyche
Why I think 2021 will be a nightmare
For me, living with anxiety means being scared, all the time, of every single little thing that could go wrong. I am scared of the dark, I am especially scared to lose the people I love, and when I cook (even if it is just toast) the smell often makes me believe that the house is on fire. So, it is probably a safe guess to think that my pessimist vision of 2021, being a nightmare and all, is mostly due to the usual anxious thoughts taking over me. But… what if it is not?
By Marie-Christine Bélec5 years ago in Psyche
Testing Positive For Covid-19 With Health Anxiety
It’s been nearly three weeks now since I tested positive for Covid-19. Throughout the first lockdown I was living with my parents who are classed as vulnerable. For three months I followed the rules, and then some, to protect my parents. I didn’t see friends or my partner, I didn’t go to the supermarket, and for a while we didn’t even go for walks – which wasn’t very good for our mental health, but for a family that constantly go to the doctor for health screenings and lump checks, having the news blast in our faces daily that thousands of people are dying daily from the pandemic had our anxiety out of control. ‘What’s a few months in the long run really?’, my mum continuously exclaimed. What didn’t help once more was that a close family friend was fighting for his life in the ICU who had no underlying health issues and was younger than my parents. A cloud was over the house daily as they contacted the hospital for updates and only increased our anxiety. For these reasons and more, the pandemic has been one anxiety bomb after another for suffers of anxiety.
By John Thacker5 years ago in Psyche
Life as we know it
Just to preface that this was something originally I planned to post for a college paper but feel the need to go forth an put this information out to see what was some of the thought, mostly due to the fact that during this pandemic most of our health issues have revolved around keeping intact mental health more than usually.
By Rashaad Gomez5 years ago in Psyche
The Chains of Freedom
So I guess the best way to start all of this is a warning: The inner workings of my mind are muddied with the constant badgering of what-ifs and the infinite possibilities that exist therein. I struggle to maintain my sanity in the incohesive acrobatics of my thought patterns.
By Pablo Falcon5 years ago in Psyche
The War On Masculinity
An ex friend of mine recommended the book "The WAR AGAINST BOYS: How Misguided Feminism Is Harming Our Young Men by Christina Hoff Sommers ( https://www.amazon.com/WAR-AGAINST-BOYS-Misguided-Feminism/dp/0684849577 "Despite popular belief, American boys tag behind girls in reading and writing ability, and they are less likely to go to college. Our young men are greatly at risk, yet the best-known studies and experts insist that it's girls who are in need of our attention. The highly publicized "girl crisis" has led to many changes in American schools, politics, and parenting...but at what cost? In this provocative book, Christina Hoff Sommers argues that our society has continued to overemphasize the troubles of girls while our boys suffer from the same self-esteem and academic problems. Boys need help, but not the sort of help they've been getting." I highly encourage everyone to read it) years ago.
By Justice for All5 years ago in Psyche
2020 in Review: Reflection
I have to say this year has been one of the weirdest years ever for a lot of people including myself. It has been a complete roller coaster that has sucked the life out of everyone both mentally and physically. It’s still hard to comprehend, even when it is the time of the New Year again.
By Alna Armonia5 years ago in Psyche
