the caretaker of a broken heart

This is but a free write.

I've been in a handful of relationships to understand when a heart is broken. I'm currently in a situation-ship that moved to fast but is strong now. However, I'm always stuck with the same problem.

How can you mend a broken heart that you didn't break .. all while doing the same for your own?

Todays Motivation: Abandonment, avoidance, fear of a broken heart </3

Why do you ignore me when I speak?

Does my voice annoy you?

Or with me, do you feel incomplete?

Why is it that you get upset when im mad

Is it hard to take accountability?

Or does the pain you cause me make you feel bad?

Why do you tell me you love me if you hate everything I do?

Was it just for the lesson?

Did you only attend a school?

Because the cut hurts deep and the pain gets bad

After weeks its still infected and If I say anything you get mad

Now I’m stuck with this feeling, I feel sick to my core

And I’m sad in your face, your realize but don't help anymore

You wanted me and you got me, now your mission is over

Its like

I met you when you were drunk, I had wished you were sober

Am I a rebound? Please don't treat me like a sponge

Because this shock absorption was limited to only one

I want us together.. I know we can last

but my pain will stay forever if you treat me like your past.