autophobe

All I fear

Is fear

Itself

Of self

My self

-induced

-destruction

-sabotage

-flagellation

-harm.

Old bad habits

People

We repeat them with

The ones we replace

Replicate

To remind us who we've been

Who we've lost,

or tried to.

Ones we let get in the way

Familiarity is to complacency as apathy is to atrophy

is to entropy which is

≥ codependency which =

fear of coming home,

going out,

picking up;

what happens if we don't.

Broken telephone

Promises

Dishes

Bones

Cycles

Fear of falling towers

& triple edged swords.

Fear of change

Fear of the unknown

Fear of sleep;

of waking

Alone

At all

Or worse,

next to someone else

As someone else

You don't scare me.

Me, my own worst nightmare

Me, who deserves better.

I know you are,

but what am I?

We

Bounce back and stick together

to figure it out

In separate rooms