Why is Writing So Hard?

I love getting lost in a good story...and even better, my brain loves sending me cool 30 second shots of a bad a$$ film I should direct...

All these great ideas...and no time to get them created. Or worse. Get them written and no money, resources or connections to famous producers to get the thing made.

This, is the life of a lonely, gifted writer.

What to do?

I can see the movie in my minds eye, the colors, location, main characters and the current scene.

These mini movies keep me up at night...but will I get up and actually write them down? Of course not. I need the sleep. I know all too well, if I get up out of the bed at 2am and start writing... I will be up all night and feel like horse pooh the next 3 days for it.

Getting old is not for the faint of heart for sure.

So, I stick to my sleep schedule and hope the time and motivation kicks in sometime tomorrow before I realize it wasn’t that great of a movie after all.

I have so much work to do anyways. A new client, difficult and delusional, but paid his bill non the less. So, off to finding out how to save his domain name from certain death?

I have bills to pay. Not even that many bills really. Just the basic rent, utilities, food, gas, insurance and latte habit.

With AI taking over everything attached to a power cord, most web designers and digital service providers are scrambling to figure out what the f*ck is next for us.

Write now, looks like UBI might be next, if we are lucky. If we force our "leaders" to get it up and running.

I mean really, with Covid, our government printed millions of dollars like crazy.

We all know they can do it.

We need to change the rules of the game and fast.

We are running out of resources.

Running out of time.

I wonder if Big AI had a plan all along.

Get all of us working from home.

So they can use all the energy left to run its AI data centers?

The jokes on them...no one will be able to afford their services.

So, with that being said.

What services will they offer?

Maybe AI will not be selling us UBI workers anything?

Maybe, there is another reason why Big Ag, Big Pharma, Big Corporate are pushing so hard for AI to take over 99% of jobs by 2027?

They know something we don’t for sure.

Maybe those "Aliens" that showed up last few years actually had something to say to our leaders.

Maybe they said "Hey, your planet is going to Sh*t, fast."

So, this whole AI thing is really, an Alien force, here to save us dumb humans from going extinct along with all the creatures.

See? Here I go again. I start one train of thought, then all my worries and conspiracy theories pop up and demand my attention instead.

How is an Audhr supposed to relax and create content, no one is going to read anyway?

God, I am only at 534 words... another 450 or so go to.

How many reads do you need to make $3000 per month?

How many backlinks will it take?

Can we even trust this platform to pay us what we are worth?

Are we worth anything?

Ok, back to work.

Was working hard to get a lame domain name back from some guy who got ripped off by two pretty women who built a fake store on Shopify and bought fake followers.

I wonder how much they got for that fake store?

Looks like he is going to lose the domain name anyway... they never transitioned it over to the new owner.

God, how did he get that money in the first place...to be so "dumb?"

Trust fund money?

Gangster money?

Just being a white guy in 1980's, 1990's and 2000's money?

Who knows

Should I create fake Shopify Stores and buy fake traffic?

Can I use AI to make sexy ish photos of my, a young 20 something, dumb woman?

Then put my website for sale on all the marketplaces?

Wait for lonely middle aged creepy men to ask how much?

I mean, its better than OnlyF's or other online sites right?

I never had the nerve to do those things.

Shout out to the people that could.

You all made major bank.

I am a sweet old girl from the South.

Too much Bible belt brain washing in these brain cells.

I really need to find a way to make a living soon.

What if the AI Kings all decide to not give us UBI?

What if everything goes all crazy?

Sheeesh. I need to get back to work.

812 words... almost there.

So, learning to write again, on this platform, for the joy of it and also some money.

Could be good therapy, or better than BetterHelp has been these last few years.

I pay over $400 a month and my therapist, needs therapy.

I find myself comforting her mostly.

Maybe I should become a therapist?

I don’t think I could handle hearing about all the injustices of the world.

Coming up with all these solutions to fix their problems, knowing damn well they will never take your advice?

It would be like having teens again in the house.

I don’t have the brain power to do that anymore.

So, back to trying to make a living on Vocal again.

What is it, 1 penny per read?

Sheesh... I need about $5k per month.

*Runs to chat gpt and asks "How many reads per month do I need on Vocal to make $3k per month?

Oh, nice, 500,000 reads per month. lol

Ok, I have done SEO for 27 years, I can do this.

But what if I rank all my articles in Google and get 500k views or reads per month and they lock me out and keep my articles?

Can they do that?

YIKES... i hope not.

I need to get back to work.